This was pretty tragic...
We decided to get a few more chicks before they were all gone so Kelley brought home four more. These were the golden sex link variety. They were younger than the other ones we got...only a week old the guy told Kelley. I thought this was kind of young to leave their incubator but I guess they do it all the time so they should be fine. We just have to keep them warm. They were the cutest little puff balls!
Kelley brought them home and put them in the box with the other older ones. We could see there wasn't enough room, so Kelley built this awesome little house for them up in the top of the coop. He's pretty amazing I have to say!It was up high so they were close to the heat light in there and we thought they would be plenty warm.
They older chicks were loving it and most of the little ones did at first too. Then a day or so later, Kelley comes in and says one of the chicks had died. I felt so bad! We couldn't figure it out though cause it was really quite warm up there. Well I was keeping a close eye on the other ones and noticed another one of them was looking droopy.
I called the guy at Cal Ranch and he said the only thing he could think of was that it was not warm enough. So we took that little chick and put her in a bucket with the heat lamp right on her. It was really crazy cause as soon as I took her out of there, she perked right up. She was hopping around and eating and drinking and I thought she was going to be okay.
We decided to take the other baby chicks out of there and put them closer to the warm lamp.
Well the one little chick seemed just fine all afternoon, but then she started looking sad again. She shuts her little eyes and just stands there kind of swaying like she's drunk. I'd pick her up and try to perk her up, but she just went steadily downhill to where she couldn't stand up. She was making the saddest little peep noise I could hardly stand it. The other chicks were walking all over her and started pecking at her so I took her out of there.I tried getting her to take some water with a dropper, but she seemed like she couldn't swallow. I wrapped her up in a little towel and just held her cause I didn't know what else to do. I thought 'If I'm holding her, she surely can't die'. She was still breathing and peeping (when I'd stroke her back... I was probably squeezing the peep out of her) but she wouldn't open her eyes. After a while, she stopped breathing. Oh man, it really got to me. I don't know if it was because I had been holding her and trying to nurse her back to life all day, but it made me so sad.
It could have been a culmination of sad events... my dear Daralyn lost her baby last week. She had been though so much with all of her health problems, then to have this happen was heartbreaking. The baby was big enough to deliver it and hold it. It was a little boy. There are just no words to make it better, so I took her some peonies and a pie and told her I loved her.
Another dear friend has been weighing heavy on my heart too as she goes through radiation and chemotherapy to try to get rid of the cancer in her mouth. She had surgery in February when they found another spot and they tried to reconstruct the roof of her mouth with a piece of skin from her leg. Her Dr. told her if it comes back again, they wouldn't have anything else they could do so they are fighting it aggressively. Now she has thrush in her mouth from the chemotherapy. Seriously...why?
She has the most amazing attitude of anyone I've ever seen though. She is so positive and cheerful and just says she isn't going to worry anymore, that she's just given it to the Lord.
Then there's dear Judy. She has been struggling with Parkinsons disease for the past four or five years. It was really hard for her to get a medication that would work for her and control the shaking without turning her into a zombie. It's heartbreaking to see her try to talk and she just can't. Then she started having falls cause her balance was so bad. She fell at a ward dinner one night...Kelley saw her going down and made a dash to catch her, but didn't make it. She wasn't hurt, but just humiliated. I know after that, she was afraid to come out to things.
Anyway, a while ago, she was having a lot of pain in her knee and had a knee replacement. It was never quite right though and still hurt and they realized it was infected. They tried all kinds of antibiotics to get rid of the infection but nothing worked. So the doctor said they needed to take the new knee out and fill the spot with some sort of cement ??? I don't know, I guess so they could get rid of the infection, then they will put it back together. Well since they've done that, she's been through hell and back...actually, I think she'd tell you she's still in hell.
Kelley, Candice and I went to visit her yesterday and she's in a pretty bad way. The pain in her leg is off the charts and when I touched her leg, it felt hot. She just kind of shook her head and said, the infection is still there. She is at the Legacy house just up the street and I've wanted to go see her ever since she had the surgery, but Joann would say Judy doesn't want people to see her like that. I get that... she is a proud lady and is always the one taking care of everyone else. I think Kelley is one of the few people she would let do things for her...probably cause he didn't ask, he just does it.
Anyway, I was glad Kelley and Candice went with me. Candice loves her so and has been very worried about her. And Kelley loves her like a mom. They have a sweet relationship...she likes his teasing and gives it right back to him. He's kind of good that way to help you forget your troubles and make you laugh even when things are rough. I love that about him.
When I got home from church Sunday, Kelley asked me if I knew about Polly's brain tumor. WhaaaaaaT??? He said Dave had mentioned it in Priesthood meeting. Kate said they hadn't said anything about it in ward council so I called Martha. She always knows whats going on. She told me Polly's been having weird symptoms for the past month or so with pain in her legs, then numbness. Then she had a hard time even walking so she went to the dr (well several doctors) and found out she has a tumor at the base of her brain. They don't think it's cancerous, but it's growing and needs to be taken out. They are going to do radiation on it first to try to shrink it, then surgery.
Oh. my. goodness.
So I called Polly and talked to her about it. She said she's grateful it's not cancer, but frustrated because the doctors keep putting her off on getting it taken care of. They say the next appointment they can give her is months away! That's not okay! It's got to the point where she's afraid to go anywhere cause her legs don't work and it's getting worse every day as the tumor grows. She is such a dear, I can't even imagine the anguish she's gone through the past month.
Anyway, people got some hard stuff. I am not even comparing the suffering these dear ladies have gone through to losing my baby chick, it was just a sad thing that seemed to be the final straw.
On Sunday, I was set apart as the compassionate service leader in the ward. Brian gave me the most incredible blessing, I wish I could have written down every word. I felt the spirit so strong as he blessed me with the gift of a compassionate heart...that I would feel the feelings the sisters are going through and know what to do to be able to best serve and lift them. He said I needed to be the Lords hands. Oh boy, that felt really heavy, but at the same time, such a sacred special responsibility. I truly love the ladies in this ward!
Katie taught the lesson in RS on Sunday and there was such a feeling of love and unity between the sisters. (Katie did an incredible job with the lesson by the way...my heart was just bursting as I watched her...she has a special gift and it makes me so happy and grateful to see her use it!) So glad she is in tune and knew what those ladies needed to hear that day...it was pretty evident she touched many hearts.
Anyway, maybe that's why I've been such a mess of emotions lately...I get to feel all the feelings...
Heaven help me...no Please, Heaven help me!